I have this sinking feeling within me. Don’t know why. Why I’m longing for her so much. Longing for her gaze into my eyes. Longing for her touch on my body. Longing for the warmth of her breath on my neck. Longing for everything about her. Everything that is her. Everything that can be her.
It’s been only a day since I’m away from her. A mere day. Days like this I have seen come by and pass away. Days like this I have wondered where they have gone. Days like this which never had any meaning. Never had any importance for me. But not anymore.
I’m tethered to her. Thousand miles separating us. Still, I’m tethered to her. Mountains and rivers between us, still, I’m tethered to her. Lashing rains and raging storms between us, still, I’m tethered to her. Millions of beating hearts between us. And yet, I’m tethered to her.
Yes, I’m tethered to you.
I had stopped believing in love. Stopped believing in my ability to find love. I was a wreck. A discarded piece of driftwood floating far into the sea. No anchor to hold me. No sail to guide me to the shore. Only miles of loneliness surrounding me, weighing me down. Pulling me into the wilderness. Drowning me into its depth
I would have become castaway if you had not come into my life. Like a wind saving the day for a sailor, you guided me, moved me in the right direction. Pulling me out of my misery. Pulling me out of my hopelessness. Like a good omen, you gave me happiness. Brought me good luck. Made me believe.
In no time I got used to be with you. To live in the wake of your presence. To drink your view with my eyes. To breathe in the fragrance of your body.
Saying you bye was the hardest of the things I had to do. How will I survive I don’t know. This time without you. Never knew that a day could feel so long. A day of twenty four hours. Fourteen hundred minutes. Eighty six thousand seconds. I’m feeling it, every passing second as it is a life time. I can’t live without you.