Last night I decided to play a little prank on my girlfriend. And.. I regret this as one of the biggest mistakes of my life.
She and I are in a long-distance relationship. In fact, it was our early days of courtship when she switched to Delhi. So, you know, we are still in that upswing curve of romance which is so common to a relationship.
Apart from madly being in love, we are highly insecure too. We both are highly independent and have lots of common friends. So we go out a lot -to parties and clubs (ripe for a fling).
It was I who first felt this feeling. One day she told me that one of our common friend (who lives in Pune) is getting all mushy about missing her. That she is a girl of a kind, different from others, and that’s why he likes hanging out with her. He even told her that he is looking for a transfer to Delhi! (What jerk boys are!!)
Similarly, when she would tell me about her past boyfriends or Tinder dates, I would get similar pangs of jealousy and insecurity. (Is this love?)
So last night, when we were talking (on skype), I casually slipped out that I am going out for a movie with an office friend. I didn’t plan to tell it beforehand. But out of nowhere, during our conversation, I just said it. I don’t know why, but just as a kind of joke – Yes, I’m pretty sure about that.
(Ok, just to give a background, I do say this kind of things, one liner jokes, sarcastic statements. And in my defense, she usually laughs at this.)
As I said that, initially she was pretty light about it, laughing and inquiring since when you know her (she knows that the girl is an office colleague, but she is not my friend).
(If you are planning to stop reading here, then a disclaimer -don’t ever try this at home)
Seeing her falling in my trap (of this practical joke), I built on that and said a little this and a little that and soon I had a story that I am going out for the new Hindi movie release (Baar Baar Dekho) and a dinner after that.
All hell broke loose after that!
She said she doesn’t want to talk to me, and she will reconsider us. When I sensed things were going off, I apologized like a thief caught red-handed does. I swore that it was all a lie, fabrication of my thoughts, that I was an idiot to say all those things (I really meant the last line.. Is this love??)
But she didn’t budge.
Then I did the second mistake. I covered my face and acted as if I was hurt and crying. After a couple of moment, she got worried and started asking if I was all right, and please look at me. I thought she had calmed down and removed the cover of the hand from my face. I was not much hurt, and definitely not crying. And she saw that.
All hell broke loose again. This time, like a volcano.
Skype call disconnected. My calls on her phone were answered. (I must have called her ten times, at least)
After some time I called her again. And she picked the call up. (I was like.. Thaaannkk Godd.. and I’m an atheist….Is this really love???)
But I could sense here she was all robotic and cold. She said that I was lying and she could see that in my face. (I wasn’t lying. Helpp.. me goodd!). And she said that she has to reconsider things now. And now I should sleep because I have to get up early… (how suddenly she is worrying about my sleep!!)
Lost, I gave up, said our goodnights and slept. And that was one of the worst sleep I ever had in my life.
So, when I got up this morning, the first thing I did was wrote this.
She isn’t taking up my calls. I hope she reads it and forgives me for that little stupid joke. And I promise I’ll never do something like this ever ever again.
But really, what the heck was that, why do the girls get so hung up on things, and then stop talking, stop communicating, making things go from bad to worse!!
I have no answer to this. And I’m not going to try to find out at least from her, for sure.